Abstract

Long drives are quite stimulating, it gives imagination much freedom to stretch. At times the concentration to imagine is disturbed by few curses over other drivers who dare to take over my driving space. And back to imagination where, yea taking the writers award for literature sensation, and no, the cult following, thank you. Was it my magnum opes. At times imagining self as a heroic spartan beating bad fell as all but with classic fist ” bishum- bishum”. Can you beat it, not a single punch on you, gotcha Steven Segal and Bachan.

And with it you miss the turn, you were suppose to take. More curses from fellow explorers, huh, what did you just said. ” Dude, I repeated it, what’s up are you on iodex, wake up, its a long journey. Shucks, the demon kept comming, I’m gonna slaughter all of em, painful death indeed. Ok, stop, take the left turn, go 3 kms in till you hit the dirt road, another 4 kms right and you’ll hit the camping base.

Its late night and camps are being set, its full moon over the sand dune, the sand spines dancing all over the dune, moon melting the sand into gold, or was it the last sun rays. Loud music, unbearable crazy fanatics, click, and chilled coke glup glup, cigarettes, already warming up the barbecue, ok some one was suppose to get the liquid to fire up the coals and forgot. Some nasty curses. Petrol did the job. Delicious grill, chicken, lamb, kebabs, post dinner tea, another cup and some story telling.

I’m lying down, its a desert night, suppose to be cool. Stars lots of it, can’t count. Thinking about all faces who mattered once and don’t anymore. Time flies. Horse shit!!! Nothing flies, we have perfect capability to shut things off we don’t want to see. I once thought that in life’s journey, excess baggage got to be dumped but failed to clear, at what cost. Now, this starry night, and snores. Far very far I saw the stars dancing

Thought

Sometimes I wonder what do relationship means to me. I’ve been accused, cursed and dammed for not being good with relationships. For my part I try to keep it as they taught me a decade ago in marketing class ” KISS”, keep it short and simple.

Well, times have changed and probably I did not evolved into a more gregarious social animal, mostly I realized that social gatherings are filled with not always but mostly with big farts, bigger mouths. Though I manage to find a quite corner . Looking around I try to evaluate the persona “introvert”, “extrovert” or damm it “ambivert”.

I thought maybe its the age factor, re calculated and it still added to 33. Did the IQ test and the score as usual came to “normal” so its confirmed that its neither advancing age not the Newton neutron’s intellect. Just the desire to be left alone, with books, few games, small Maryam n little gym. I do desire good conversations over tea or a smoke.

I cherish relationships where one meets an old friend after a decade and picks up the old conversation. Where one enjoys people for who

they are and not what they are. And space guys, we all need space.

Believer

No matter what you do, think or say, the results at times are different. So stay put, gargle the rage out and live life. Or, content yourself with being a vagabond at heart. Explore, read, learn, love, extinguish the fire out and re light. Take long walks, and give your lungs short freedom. Don’t over philosophize or you’ll end up becoming the cheap neighborhood shrink.

I woke up and the Wise Sage vanished with the dream. Too much soul searching can mess grey cells, I assumed.

What’s the chaos, take each day as it comes. The term ‘Qadr’,meaning” Fate”, means much to Muslims globally, who are reasonably aware with the term, the followers to my humble understanding are Many.

Going back to Qadr, the whole ideology of Islam defines Qadr as accepting ones fate which has been written and is predetermined. Now, what shall I do, wait for things to happen or make things happen. Wait for chance or create opportunities, be master or slave.

Now I choose to act or not to, and hence the outcomes becomes my Qadr. But blaming and crying for all those lost opportunities, those blood sucking humans ain’t going to take me anywhere too. So Qadr is something which I also help evolve. It has given me an option to choose, where the results are predetermined and measured. I don’t know why, but I believe, without questions, cause I at times do look at starry nights with glittering stars, sun sets, kids and am forced to thank the force which has have created all this including my own minor existence.

And I believe.

Values

Time and again its proven that values matter over other factors like inheritance or lottery. Warren Buffet emphasized this truth by giving away 35 billion dollars to Bill Gates Foundation. There are both pros and cons of inheritance. If rightly guided with quality values the inherent detail will prosper and even outdo the will maker.

Why Values?. Well values can’t be taken or lost in case of financial meltdown. And they multiply over period of time. Over long run, persistent values survive even the man/woman. To contradict myself its vice versa too. Values too have been doomed, but such cases are rare.

Ultimate aim is survival, this is the very being of man. Not to perish. Having met many people over years of professional and personal journey, the realization have finally sunk in. Its not the clan, blood line or ancestry. Its the desire to excel and carving a niche. The individual makes the difference, and with right values, much is accomplished.

Here we don’t talk about financial or professional success. It will be in limited scope defining the Will of Woman/Man. Society as ever congratulates every success and secretly harbors downfall so dancing ritual could be performed over the doomed soul.

I remember reading years ago an essay” eirsha tu na aiye mere ghar”, by Munshi Prem Chand. The writing left a deep impression on me. The writer talked about the very essence of human nature. Where man becomes so weak at other’s success.

Here the values come in. The so called social evaluation have to be dropped. What social standing got to do with the virtues of a man/woman. But, short term gains focuses the lens on wallet rather then substance.

Such people with Values are rare, you might find them in old friends who are indifferent to your present status, or new acquaintances who judge with quality than standing.